Alright folks, here we go! I’m doing something I’ve always wanted to do but have never had the courage to pursue. I’m officially throwing caution to the wind and taking some chances.
So blogging…what does that mean? Is anyone even going to care about my thoughts, stories, or opinions? Who knows! All I know is that I’ve lived and died by various bloggers over the past few years and thank goodness for them! I’ve purchased products, read books, tried new experiences, and self validated my own personal level of crazy through blogs.
I constantly find myself reading a blog and thinking two things:
1) I could totally do this
2) I WANT to do this!
Number two is the most important thought. To date, there are only two things that I have been truly, 100% passionate about in my life. When I say passionate, I mean things that I knew I was supposed to do with my life. Things that deep down, I knew God had created me to do.
1) Being a Wife
2) Being a mother
These two items listed above might be basic to some, but to me, they are the only things I’ve ever been certain of.
Growing up, my mom would ask my sister and me what we would want to be when we grew up. She would ask us every few years and neither one of our answers ever really deviated.
My sister knew early on that she wanted a career in mental health and has developed a very successful therapy practice (yup…I get free therapy…..daily….sometimes hourly #NoShame). Me on the other hand, I had no professional aspirations. I had no clue what I wanted to do as a career. My answer to my mom was simply that I wanted to be a wife and a mom. I’m am currently living those two passions and I am so incredibly grateful for a loving husband and a pretty awesome baby!
So whenever I find something that I truly want to do…something that I think I could be good at…I’m always taken aback. I’ll spending days, weeks, months, years telling myself all the reasons why I shouldn’t. I play out every worse case scenario and think up the craziest what if situations. I beat myself down and tell myself that I couldn’t do it and that I will fail. I’ve let a lot of opportunities and experiences pass by because I’ve stood in my own way.
Since becoming a mom, I’ve realized that I don’t want my children to have any of these thoughts, I want them to never be scared to pursue their dreams and experience life. I can only raise them to do those things if I am. So here I go! I’m about 500 miles outside of my comfort zone and taking all of you along for the ride!
*Queue crazy what if situations that I’ll be up all night thinking about but will never actually happen*